I just love chats that get my brain going...
Friend: Hey there!
Me: Hello
Friend: How are you? Besides tired
Me: Horny. Lol! Seriously, very good. Happily serving a new Master.
Friend: That sounds good!
Friend: A good arrangement for meeting many of your needs?
Me: Many. Most.
Friend: Tell me about your needs today!
Me: Mmm...
Me: Didn't have an ulterior motive.
Me: Just wanted to talk.
Me: But now I'm thinking
Friend: That's totally good with me too
Friend: I missed our talks on all topics
Me: I think I have masturbated my clit off (and tortured myself with Ginger) in the past couple days. Lol!
Friend: Frustrated lately? Or just in the mood for it?
Me: Not frustrated. Getting lots always makes me want even more.
Friend: I see. And your new Master? Does he really turn your submissive crank?
Me: He turns all of my cranks. Sometimes all at once. Sometimes one or two. Not always 'subby' with him, but always serving. Did that make sense?
Me: But he can take me there in an instant.
Friend: Hmmm curious.... not always subby..... so always submissive, but not necessarily direct sexual overtone?
Me: Yes. I get toppy around T, even pushing him away. He either tolerates it, or corrects me. Or sometimes just an all out slut.
Me: A top/bottom/sado/maso/slut/woman randomness. Never know what to expect.
Friend: You are a handful....
Friend: But so very much fun
Me: He brings the sides out. He chooses my path.
Me: I hear I am fun.
Me: Ride the slut.
Me: Lol!
Friend: Here's a question...do you think you experience as much fun and pleasure as you provide?
Me: I feel guilty because I get so much more!
Friend: Good! Well, not the guilty part... that you get a lot!
Me: 100X more
Me: I can mindfuck myself quite well too. Sometimes in wonderful ways.
Me: Enhance my own experience.
Friend: Interesting.... what have you been mentally exploring? Makes me curious!
Me: I just feed on my own subbiness. Sometimes creeps out at work. Kneeling & applying lotion to feet, bathing, serving the patients sometimes kicks it off. Not good there.
Friend: Heheh that's fine.... I do tend to over think, but I find it fascinating.
Me: But in the right place. With other naked people, very nice.
Friend: I think I get it.... sort of luxuriating in the mental state where subbiness takes you.
Me: It's not all mental though. It's chemical.
Friend: Chemical as in hormones, or recreational assistance?
Me: My fear/adrenaline rushes, the pain endorphins, can be enhanced mentally. Recreationally too, even if only wine. But often herbal.
Friend: Or just how actions trigger brain wiring?
Me: Both
Me: Each feeds the other. Can be manipulated. I can get to subspace easily now
Friend: Kinda seems how fetishes both develop and mutate based on experience and mental focus
Me: Just decide to fly early & low, or wait and build up to a really big wave.
Friend: In all seriousness, have you considered writing a book on this? You must have been approached about it by now.
Me: Mental focus. Good phrase. Meditation. Evolution.
Me: Um. No.
Friend: Does that interest you?
Me: Experiencing it interests me. And I think about it a lot. Write some. In that order.
Friend: I would never phrase it as a "responsibility" but you are uniquely gifted and experienced to be able to write about this.
Friend: Of course, there goes my over thinking again...
Me: I like your brain.
Friend: I love how you said that the same way you would compliment a cock... LOL
Friend: I take it as a compliment!
Me: No. I would have said "love" with cock.
Friend: LOL!
Me: Priorities.
Friend: Yes I have missed you!
Me: *smiles*
Friend: Ahhh but what is rarer.... an attractive mind, or an attractive cock?
Me: Both in one is rarest.
Friend: Touché
Me: Finally snuggled in bed.
Friend: I am picturing you... it pleases me
... And then the conversation went on for a while, but you're probably not interested in that part... I wasn't doing much typing... ;)
