A Slut's Life (Part 10)

 

I did survive the night plug & all. Cock & pussy everywhere! I am so tired now I doubt I can even get off. Work sucks! ;) about 4 hours ago via Seesmic Web

  

Hi ho, Hi ho...It's time for this Ho to go... See you in the morning! about 14 hours ago via web

  

Oh, by the way, if I shock or offend any new followers let me know. ;) And now for some tits... http://j.mp/9D7Iw1 about 15 hours ago via web

  

Now the plug is part of my week long mindfuck too, along with easy to remove clothing. At least it's comfy! http://youtu.be/fZn1WgVstKo about 15 hours ago via Seesmic Web

  

By popular Twitter, Yahoo, and Facebook demand (and command), the plug is going in... This is going to be a very long night... about 16 hours ago via Seesmic Web

  

I suppose wearing the Njoy plug tonight would be a bad idea... about 16 hours ago via Seesmic Web

  

The slut in me doesn't like to see a cock that's not hard... unless I have already made it cum. about 17 hours ago via Seesmic Web

  

Nothing worse than craving cock so bad it hurts, then having cocks in my hands all night... and having to behave. My inner slut screaming... about 17 hours ago via Seesmic Web

  

When I go to work horny I notice how many cocks and pussies I literally see there. And it is a very hands on job. Must remain professional. about 17 hours ago via Seesmic Web

  

Now after a long nap, VERY hot chats, and and awesome pic in my email, I need cock and loads of cum. The problem is I have to go to work. :( about 17 hours ago via Seesmic Web

  

And so begins a week long mindfuck for me... Doms can be so evil! http://j.mp/bF1Ncg Tuesday, September 28, 2010 10:14:02 PM via Twitter for iPhone

  

From a Dom friend: "You are mine on Wed... Something special... Something for your blog... Taking pictures... Chance of getting arrested..." Tuesday, September 28, 2010 12:56:32 PM via IM+

  

Almost time for work. Perhaps the Njoy plug in my ass will help keep me awake. Or at least pleasantly distracted. ;) Monday, September 27, 2010 10:07:59 PM via IM+

  

The things not said that he knows I am thinking should keep me grinning while I work. http://bit.ly/a1QqSe Monday, September 27, 2010 5:33:49 PM via AddToAny

  

First thing I saw on new job was the hot young guy I went to school with. He was so sexually harrassed! I am going to like it here. ;) Monday, September 27, 2010 2:25:36 AM via IM+

  

Advantages to working graveyards... Zero traffic, no lines at stores, easy parking... Now if I can just stay awake for eight more hours. Sunday, September 26, 2010 10:14:55 PM via IM+

  

Time to get ready for work. Haven't worked graveyard shift in years. Please ignore any half-asleep tweets for the next few days. :) Sunday, September 26, 2010 8:20:31 PM via IM+

  

For "inquiring minds": Probably 9" and pretty thick. All the way. A matter of pride and lots of work. #DeepThroatSkills http://j.mp/a3YZto Sunday, September 26, 2010 2:18:31 PM via Twitter for iPhone

  

FYI: Impossible to request permission to cum (or call a safeword) with a huge cock rammed all the way down your throat. #NotMyFault Sunday, September 26, 2010 1:52:10 PM via IM+

  

Now I am regretting not staying over. Cock and pussy would have been a very nice breakfast too! Sunday, September 26, 2010 1:11:45 PM via Seesmic Web

  

I love cock! Just sayin'. Sunday, September 26, 2010 11:13:47 AM via IM+

  

And I HAVE to have this shirt... http://yfrog.com/50utgj Sunday, September 26, 2010 10:13:35 AM via Yfrog

  

I want this shirt! http://yfrog.com/j6u96j Sunday, September 26, 2010 10:12:51 AM via Yfrog

  

Ahhh... Just getting in at 4:30. I feel much better. Sunday, September 26, 2010 4:27:08 AM via IM+

  

Patience is a virtue. It's just not one of mine... Saturday, September 25, 2010 11:32:48 PM via IM+

  

Tortured. Company still here... Saturday, September 25, 2010 11:00:41 PM via IM+

  

The steaks and veggies are awesome. Not the meat I want. Saturday, September 25, 2010 10:29:34 PM via IM+

  

Waiting is torture... Saturday, September 25, 2010 10:11:43 PM via IM+

  

First a steak dinner... Then cock and pussy for dessert... ;) Saturday, September 25, 2010 8:15:51 PM via IM+

  

Getting paid is nice. Getting paid 30% more for less work, less hours, & a better working environment ROCKS! So glad my old boss was a cunt. Friday, September 24, 2010 11:55:46 AM via IM+

  

The Girl With The Dragon Tattoo was a very good movie. Thank you @saynine. (Loved the taser part!!) Thursday, September 23, 2010 8:29:24 PM via Seesmic Web

  

This explains why I need to have cock. For my mental health... http://bit.ly/arn3Y3 (from @willfilenslaved) Thursday, September 23, 2010 5:25:02 PM via Seesmic Web

  

Figured out how to get protected tweets and facebook stuff in one feed on my site. Yay! Now back to sleep. No more creeps will wake me now. Thursday, September 23, 2010 6:44:32 AM via Power Twitter

  

Now trying to figure how to feed protected tweet to website still. Doesn't work anymore. :( Thursday, September 23, 2010 5:47:38 AM via Power Twitter

  

Finally had to protect my tweets. Some people just like to ruin the fun. :( Thursday, September 23, 2010 5:43:48 AM via Power Twitter

  

Good morning. *rubs eyes and looks longingly at pillow* Thursday, September 23, 2010 5:00:50 AM via web

  

Picked the hottest tallest guy to share microscope with. Yummy! But he is switching days next week. Dammit!! Wednesday, September 22, 2010 8:40:25 PM via IM+

  

Guess who picked the lab table with only men (all the men in the class)... ;) Wednesday, September 22, 2010 7:18:05 PM via IM+

  

Sitting in a class I did not know I was registered in til yesterday wondering which guy would be best fuck. Should be paying attention. :-/ Wednesday, September 22, 2010 6:03:26 PM via IM+

  

  

http://yfrog.com/5zheqhj Wednesday, September 22, 2010 11:25:21 AM via Twitter for iPhone

  

*sigh* I now regret ever letting my little one start to take showers with me. Seemed like a good thing then... *frustrated whimper* Wednesday, September 22, 2010 10:37:56 AM via IM+

  

Off to get naked, hot, steamy, and wet... (No, not getting laid. Just a shower but with a massaging shower head...) *sigh* #INeedCock Wednesday, September 22, 2010 9:26:09 AM via IM+

  

Fair warning...http://bit.ly/c31mQG Tuesday, September 21, 2010 10:32:27 PM via Seesmic Web

  

It's been 19 days since I've been fucked! Hands, toys, whips, clamps, violet wands, etc are fun BUT SOMEBODY BETTER STICK A COCK IN ME! Tuesday, September 21, 2010 8:04:38 PM via Power Twitter

  

I will be celebrating my first Kinkiversary and am planning to celebrate it with the one that introduced me to BDSM. ;) http://bit.ly/bCDTOP Tuesday, September 21, 2010 6:36:30 PM via Power Twitter

  

"Between two evils, I always pick the one I never tried before." ~Mae West Monday, September 20, 2010 6:58:49 PM via Twitter for iPhone

  

  

Still sated days later... and never even got any cock... Either I really am a pain slut or I am very ill... ;) Saturday, September 18, 2010 12:14:08 PM via Seesmic Web

  

Which are you? http://plixi.com/p/45650164 Friday, September 17, 2010 1:25:24 PM via Seesmic Web

  

#Twitter helps me keep my sanity during Mickey Mouse and Dora the Explorer... Friday, September 17, 2010 12:47:24 PM via Seesmic Web

  

I am on Google's first page under "Miss Bratty Slut". Hey! *stomps feet and pouts* Friday, September 17, 2010 11:56:08 AM via Seesmic Web

  

Should I be proud or concerned that someone using a "U.S. House Of Representatives" computer is on my blog? Friday, September 17, 2010 11:43:24 AM via Seesmic Web

  

I think I would pick James Bond. The character, not the actors. But I would do all of the actors that have played him as well. :D Wednesday, September 15, 2010 5:40:40 PM via IM+

  

Question for everyone: Which fictional character/superhero/supervillain etc. would you like to fuck? Why? Wednesday, September 15, 2010 5:31:13 PM via IM+

  

And they wonder why no one responds. Guys- a standard email on dating sites sticks out like a sore thumb. Personalize it! Wednesday, September 15, 2010 5:25:02 PM via IM+

  

"Hi. I read your profile and think I might be what you are looking for." "Really? My profile says 'not looking for anything.'" Dumbass! Wednesday, September 15, 2010 5:14:50 PM via IM+

  

  

#INeedANap! I am beat! Tuesday, September 14, 2010 4:18:12 PM via IM+

  

Today's spacey tweets have been brought to you by the letter "P" and the number "Ow". Tuesday, September 14, 2010 3:54:16 PM via web

  

I think soundproofing in cellar dungeon might be redundant. Never woke his sleeping son (NOT a minor) and I was loud. #ThisWasHimHoldingBack Tuesday, September 14, 2010 3:42:22 PM via web

  

Not one tear shed. Almost cried several times. Stubborn masochist. But did I win or lose? Tuesday, September 14, 2010 3:32:11 PM via web

  

Thank you. @ButchtasticKyle "wow.. your consensual non-consent piece? #ohholyfuckmeuntilIcan'tmoveanymore. wow" Tuesday, September 14, 2010 3:27:37 PM via web

  

Body piercings conduct. Tuesday, September 14, 2010 3:16:00 PM via IM+

  

Vampire gloves can tickle. Almost worse that way. #WhoKnew? Tuesday, September 14, 2010 3:10:53 PM via IM+

  

"You suffer beautifully." Tuesday, September 14, 2010 2:51:11 PM via IM+

  

Other side. Afraid to look behind me yet. http://yfrog.com/bg6hxfj Tuesday, September 14, 2010 2:22:17 PM via Twitter for iPhone

  

Chocolate chip cookie dough ice cream with hot fudge and nuts. Baskin Robbins is the shit! Tuesday, September 14, 2010 2:15:54 PM via IM+

  

Chocolate ice cream sounds yummy. Tuesday, September 14, 2010 2:08:53 PM via IM+

  

There is no sensation to compare with this... Tuesday, September 14, 2010 2:03:44 PM via IM+

  

Stretched to the point of no turning back Tuesday, September 14, 2010 2:01:50 PM via IM+

  

Into the distance, a ribbon of black Tuesday, September 14, 2010 2:01:30 PM via IM+

  

Mindless twitching puddle of goo. Concrete floors will suck the heat from your body. No sound underground. Grinning. Tuesday, September 14, 2010 1:56:57 PM via IM+

  

Cool, not cllo. See? No brain. Tuesday, September 14, 2010 1:44:15 PM via IM+

  

Blog just hit 20,000 mark. Not the best part of my day, but cllo nonetheless. Tuesday, September 14, 2010 1:42:39 PM via IM+

  

Missing: brain. Last Seen: Tacoma. Tuesday, September 14, 2010 1:19:13 PM via IM+

  

That's gonna hurt tomorrow! http://yfrog.com/5pgydj Tuesday, September 14, 2010 12:52:13 PM via Twitter for iPhone

  

Ozone stinks. Tuesday, September 14, 2010 12:41:03 PM via IM+

  

I planned to visit the masochist part of myself today. I did and am in this very wonderful place right now. It has been far too long… Tuesday, September 14, 2010 11:58:27 AM via IM+

  

Prrrrrrrr... Tuesday, September 14, 2010 11:36:29 AM via IM+

  

Oh shit! Fuck! Oh. Ah. Ow! Tuesday, September 14, 2010 11:36:03 AM via IM+

  

Good morning. Can't chat. Have to... um... to go down some stairs... Back later. http://conversationlist.comfor those who asked. Butterflies Tuesday, September 14, 2010 8:01:12 AM via IM+

  

My day plan: Imagine meeting yourself with no logic, no thought, no morals, no 'filters'... only the greedy, most basic 'survival mode' part Tuesday, September 14, 2010 6:52:26 AM via Power Twitter

  

Just as I was closing the computer "I will hood and gag you in the dungeon" pops up. Now how am I supposed to sleep? #NervousAndExcited Monday, September 13, 2010 11:29:44 PM via Power Twitter

  

*sigh* Now I am thinking about my date tomorrow again... http://yfrog.com/50lu6lj Monday, September 13, 2010 7:28:47 PM via Yfrog

  

You know those "what the fuck have I gotten myself into" moments? Having one now. Probably won't be the last before tomorrow... Monday, September 13, 2010 3:09:11 PM via Power Twitter

  

Do any other moms stuck watching Disney wonder which Imagination Mover would be the best lay? Or what about the engineer on Choo Choo Soul? Monday, September 13, 2010 1:31:09 PM via IM+

  

I just found lube in the refrigerator. I KNEW IT! (Well, I guess it could have been my toddler...) 12:50 PM Sep 13th via Power Twitter

  

High praise from a writer I admire! "@Alexa_DiCarlo Probably 1 of the most riveting pieces I've ever read" http://bit.ly/d907eh 11:29 AM Sep 13th via Twitter for iPhone in reply to Alexa_DiCarlo

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Wanton Wednesday: "Boobies"

I realized this week I didn't have a photo (again) for Wanton Wednesday. I have had lots of photos taken of my recent wantonness, but not on my camera. (Some people have yet to send me these photos. I have seen a few of them... VERY hot... too bad I can't post them... *ahem*)

Last week seemed to be a boobie week on WW. So I pulled this photo up. The original is here on this blog, without the stars, but I am not going to say where. The story behind this photo is there as well.

Perhaps I should offer a treat for the one that finds it. But what to offer? Any ideas Hubman? Matt? Anyone?

Now I am worried about next week's WW. From a Dom friend today: "You are mine on Wed... Something special... Something for your blog... Taking pictures... Chance of getting arrested..." An entire week to have my mind mull over these hints... Not sure what he has in mind for my Kinkiversary.

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Graveyard Shift

I started my new job last night. I think it will take a few days to get adjusted to working the graveyard shift. But I know I am going to like it there.
It was a very pleasant surprise to walk in and see another familiar face. I knew the man who interviewed me, and felt instantly comfortable there. But last night I saw an extremely hot young man that I had gone to school with last year. At the time, he was the only man in my class, so of course I partnered up with him for all the hands on training. Well, somebody had to... He can not only take sexual harassment very well, he can dish it out too. If I remember correctly, he even got a blush or two out of me, and that is not easy to do.

There is not much time at work for flirting, but the occasional smart-assed comment, or better yet the things not said that he knows I am thinking, should keep me grinning while I work. (He was actually in one of my dreams while I was sleeping today. A very HOT dream. Usually my fantasy men do not have faces... or at least I am not paying attention to that detail...) I get to go to work again tonight. Yay!

I also started classes again last week. I hope I can keep up with the schedule while I am adjusting to this new shift. And, of course, there is a very sexy man in class to keep me interested. ;)

And finally on Saturday night (well, actually Sunday morning) I got fucked. After hours of being tortured by this couple, first acting "normal" in front of their vanilla friends forever, then hours more of torture with toys, hands, and mouths, I thought I was going to end my evening (yet again) without being fucked. Believe me, by 3 am, I had cum so many times I didn't think I would be able to anymore. I have not been suffering a lack of orgasms! They both knew I was having serious cock withdrawals and were enjoying tormenting me. I finally broke down and begged for him to fuck me. God, I do so love the feeling of a cock inside me... *sigh*

Hopefully later this week or next week I will get to celebrate my Kinkiversary with the man that got me started on all of this. Plus I really do want to go visit that Sadist again. (If that was a "tame" session with him I can't wait to find out what he is... and I am... like when he really gets serious!) If that isn't enough, the Dom I have seen that gets me in that really subby, objectified mode will hopefully get a break or two from his work soon....

*sigh* So much cock, so little time...

(*Re-reading this random rambling tells me I need to take another nap before work.) :)

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Hey, wait a minute!!

Ok. I stopped the counter at 23 1/2 days.  :D

I just realized something.
It has been

23 1/2 days since I have been fucked!!!

Hands, toys, sucking cock, whips, clamps, violet wands, etc. are fun and all.
And I have had tons of orgasms... 

BUT SOMEBODY BETTER STICK A COCK
IN MY CUNT OR ASS SOON
OR THERE WILL BE HELL TO PAY!!! 

No wonder I have not been feeling right.
I might have to turn in my Slut card...  

(This is a dynamic count-up script. I am going to leave it up until someone fucks me!!)

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Wanton Wednesday: "My First Day As A Sub"

Wow! It has almost been a year. But oh, what a year it's been!

In just a little over two weeks, I will be celebrating my first Kinkiversary. Even better yet, I am planning to celebrate it with the one that first introduced me to BDSM, the one that popped my kinky cherry. That is his hand print in the photo. My very first spank! *grins*

No, I am not talking about Sir. I did not meet Sir for another 23 days. He was not my first. In fact, he was just supposed to be a one night (and two day) stand. It's funny how things work out sometimes.

So who was before Sir? What was that experience like? I will tell you... on October 8th. ;) The story has already been written. I wrote it almost a year ago but have never posted it. I think it's high time I did!

 

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Emerging

I have noticed a lot of relationships breaking up lately. I know it's not like people haven't been breaking up all along. I just didn't notice it until I went through it myself. When I was with Sir, I was blissfully ignorant of these things. It didn't affect me because it wasn't happening to me.

I realize that sounds horribly self-centered. And it probably is. I remember, though, when I was pregnant noticing how many other pregnant women there were. It seemed like everywhere I went there were big bellies like mine, and we shared a common bond. My awareness was heightened. There were always pregnant women out there, but I just never really noticed now how many.

It is like that for me now with broken-hearted women. My awareness is still very heightened. I know what they are feeling. I feel it with them. I have cried with them. I understand the devastation, the total loss of self-identity, the huge empty void, and the meaninglessness of everything that is part of losing "Him".

We are all very different, the reasons are never the same, the relationship dynamics are unique. But it does not matter whether is was D/s, M/s, vanilla, etc. The feelings are the same. This is one bond, quite honestly, I wish I did not share. But I do. When I was in the very depths of despair, other women reached out to me and gave me much needed support. I will always be grateful for that. And I now do the same. I said to one woman recently that I was truly amazed at the support of this community.

Pretty depressing post so far, huh? But it's not all sadness and tears. I have noticed other things, too, as I have moved on and began healing. There is hope. The others I have followed, as well as myself, did move on. Not at first, and some faster than others, but the pattern seems to be very similar.

First, of course, there is the grieving. The pain, tears, anger, and despair after giving so much devotion. Wanting to curl up in a ball and just die. The wondering and the "if only" thoughts. Wanting to run away from it all. Feeling like there will never ever be anyone at all that can bring smiles, laughter, and joy. Not even wanting to try because the pain is too unbearable.

Next there are no more tears. There is just numbness. Existence. Nothing else. But stuff still needs to get done. Jobs, bills, kids, etc. do not wait. Life does go on. So we start to move, grudgingly dragged out of our comfortable numbness and the walls we built for ourselves.

Those first steps back into life are very tentative, shaky, and scary. It's not like we are looking for anything, anyway. Surprisingly, it's not so bad. Occasionally smiles happen, or maybe even laughter. There is still pain, and not the good kind. A song, a scent, or a phrase can still send us scurrying back in tears to our safe place. But each time it goes away. Each attempt becomes easier. After a while, any tears that might come are just simply wiped away. Any fleeting sadness is accepted, but does not cause a retreat.

Then comes the question "What now?" There is still a void. For the submissive woman, even those in vanilla relationships, there is something missing. There were so many wonderful things with Him. But now, come to think of it, maybe a couple of things could have been different. We know what we want (sort of), but we also know what we will not tolerate. And there even might be a few things we have always wanted to try. Now there is no one telling us what we can and can not do.

So now there is a new freedom. And it's not like there is a shortage of men that are looking for submissive women. But we are not newbies anymore, no longer easy prey. All of a sudden the realization that we hold the power happens. God help the wannabe Dom that thinks he deserves to be the next one to boss us around! If and when we ever truly give ourselves again, that man will have to earn it. Until then, let the playing begin! There is, after all, no reason that we still can't have parts of what is gone. But now it is on our terms.

An empowered submissive. It sounds like an oxymoron. But these women, who learned and grew in their (often first) relationship as a sub have now emerged from their cocoons forever changed. They are delicate, and beautiful, and free. They are butterflies now.

For Christie. Big hugs!

Also for @badbadgirlx and @SubmissveWhore. Aren't these new wings great? ;)

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