I am very glad Sir and I are still friends. I have enjoyed my conversations this week with him.
Losing that connection, that deep of a level of submission, to someone hurts... a lot... like having part of your soul ripped out. (That "mark" will take a very long time to heal...)
Do not ever download a file onto your computer without knowing what it is. Even if someone you trust sends it to you. (Well, I already knew that. But now hopefully Sir does as well.)
J has more than made up for not fucking me on our date last week. (And then some...)
I can still get to Subspace. Yay! :D (I was worried that I may not be able to without Sir and that level of submission.)
I can still get off on a cock down my throat. Another Yay!! (Again that same worry.)
I do love pain!
J is a very quick learner. So am I.
The week's not over yet. Tonight will be another adventure.
I have always liked being to be able to choose my style of sex by choosing which man I feel like fucking. (My date tonight, P, is an old friend I was seeing before Sir and a very sensual, erotic Dom.)
Some days I want to be treated like a princess, some days I need to be treated like a whore. (Tonight P just happens to be in town tonight and staying at a hotel near me. What an opportunity! Now I get to be treated like a princess with a kinky twist.)
I love being a slut! I know I "should" feel guilty about something. It's not "normal" for a woman to act like this. It is what caused the drama with Sir. But I don't want to "have to" behave! I have always been a slut, and have enjoyed many adventures over the years. Now I can be a slut with all sorts of new toys (and implements, and devices, and furniture, and sensations, etc...)
I can not be binogamous. I have never been monogamous. Every time I have tried to limit myself to only two men (with my husband as #1) because the second man asked me to, I have failed. (I have never expected any partner to be "faithful" to me.)
I slept too much yesterday. I passed out from exhaustion after my date at eight and slept twelve hours. Then I took a five hour nap. Seventeen hours of sleep means I am still awake at 3 am when I should be getting rested for tonight's fun... Goodnight. :*
