But I still had friends online to keep me company...)
ME: happy boobquake day. still gotta pick a shirt to wear
MY FRIEND: you are so funny with your "holidays"
ME: not my holiday
MY FRIEND: I know
MY FRIEND: still funny
ME: i just think its the funniest "scientific" experiment i have heard in a while, plus it will piss of some old iranian cleric who thinks women cause all the problems
ME: you know my holidays would be MORE interesting...
ME: "suck a guy off in a parking lot day"
MY FRIEND: LOL true
MY FRIEND: or “get on your knees on a local park trail day”
ME: “get fucked in an alley day (or night)”
MY FRIEND: did we do that?
ME: no. just good memories
ME: cobblestones are cold...
MY FRIEND: sounded like england
MY FRIEND: a lot of alley sex there near pubs
ME: nope. i didn't do it outside in england...
ME: almost did in a cemetery in dover
ME: my favorite alley memory now is being damn near raped by a (now) friend of mine, then left there alone lying on the stones. i had to walk a very long way back alone. i was pissed at the time, but later realized it made me feel totally trashy.
MY FRIEND: was that feeling a good thing at the time or a bad thing?
ME: i masturbated to it a lot after...
MY FRIEND: LOL
MY FRIEND: true to your nature
ME: but i was pissed right then
MY FRIEND: i wonder about now?
ME: ?
ME: no. he is a good friend, and i have told him how hot it actually made me feel. he had to get back to pick his wife. we took a bit longer than planned.
MY FRIEND: no i meant i wonder how you would feel now about the 'rape'
MY FRIEND: if it happened now
ME: LOL! How do you think i would feel about it now?
MY FRIEND: you are so funny with your "holidays"
ME: not my holiday
MY FRIEND: I know
MY FRIEND: still funny
ME: i just think its the funniest "scientific" experiment i have heard in a while, plus it will piss of some old iranian cleric who thinks women cause all the problems
ME: you know my holidays would be MORE interesting...
ME: "suck a guy off in a parking lot day"
MY FRIEND: LOL true
MY FRIEND: or “get on your knees on a local park trail day”
ME: “get fucked in an alley day (or night)”
MY FRIEND: did we do that?
ME: no. just good memories
ME: cobblestones are cold...
MY FRIEND: sounded like england
MY FRIEND: a lot of alley sex there near pubs
ME: nope. i didn't do it outside in england...
ME: almost did in a cemetery in dover
ME: my favorite alley memory now is being damn near raped by a (now) friend of mine, then left there alone lying on the stones. i had to walk a very long way back alone. i was pissed at the time, but later realized it made me feel totally trashy.
MY FRIEND: was that feeling a good thing at the time or a bad thing?
ME: i masturbated to it a lot after...
MY FRIEND: LOL
MY FRIEND: true to your nature
ME: but i was pissed right then
MY FRIEND: i wonder about now?
ME: ?
ME: no. he is a good friend, and i have told him how hot it actually made me feel. he had to get back to pick his wife. we took a bit longer than planned.
MY FRIEND: no i meant i wonder how you would feel now about the 'rape'
MY FRIEND: if it happened now
ME: LOL! How do you think i would feel about it now?
ME: another time i got pulled into a warehouse (at night, but left open) by another friend and fucked hard on the concrete with no regard to the fact that my shoulder was being jammed repeatedly into the rough edge of a splintered pallet... and again left there... i had to call yet another friend to help me back to the ship. then fucked him too...
ME: concrete burn is so much worse than carpet burn...
ME: my shoulder was fucked up, and my senior chief slapped me on that shoulder the next day. screamed and fell out of my chair... but wouldn't tell why i was hurt
ME: (that subby masochistic side has always been there...)
MY FRIEND: yes i def see that. the slut side has been too!
MY FRIEND: the "fuck my cunt" side
MY FRIEND: the cram your cock in me and use me side
MY FRIEND: in as many holes as possible
ME: *happy sigh* yup!
MY FRIEND: and make it rough please
ME: pretty please
MY FRIEND: maybe a little pain on the side if you don't mind?
ME: back then, the pain was accidental, but a turn on
MY FRIEND: and for icing on the top... take it, don't make me give it to you
ME: then just walk away...
MY FRIEND: ok
ME: lol
ME: no thank you necessary
MY FRIEND: many things are not necessary
MY FRIEND: in fact, the best things are not necessary
MY FRIEND: but at certain times can seem very desirable
MY FRIEND: i mean i dont really need to fuck anyone besides my wife
MY FRIEND: but it sure can be fun
ME: it depends on which part of my brain is in control at the time what "necessary" is
MY FRIEND: yes i know what you mean
MY FRIEND: definitions have a way of shifting with the context
ME: and NEED is subjective
ME: i need a cock
MY FRIEND: that would look weird
ME: you know what i mean
MY FRIEND: what would you do with one if you had it?
MY FRIEND: whatever he wants i suppose lol
ME: you know me so well
MY FRIEND: it would have you more than you would have it
MY FRIEND: you need a cock to have you
ME: phrased so much better that way
MY FRIEND: say it
ME: i NEED a cock to take me
MY FRIEND: do you need a cock in your mouth?
MY FRIEND: say it
ME: i NEED to feel a cock in my mouth, on my tongue, down my throat...
ME: i NEED my hair pulled, and to be told that i am a nasty slut
MY FRIEND: maybe you need your hair pulled and a cock up your ass and be told you are a nasty slut
ME: i need to be used.
MY FRIEND: you love to be used
ME: the sooner the better
MY FRIEND: your master should punish you
ME: for this conversation?
MY FRIEND: if only he knew
MY FRIEND: and dont give me that "he’s not my master” shit
ME: he is. i know he is.
MY FRIEND: he has tamed you
MY FRIEND: subdued you
MY FRIEND: dominated you
ME: tamed me, yes... but ironically made me wilder than anyone ever has
MY FRIEND: of course
ME: you would not even recognize me if you saw me with him.
ME: the brain goes out the window... no smart-assed comments... no arguing...
ME: eyes to the ground... drop straight to my knees submissive...
MY FRIEND: i'm not sure i would like that as much
MY FRIEND: i'm fairly sure i would not
MY FRIEND: for several probably contradictory reasons
ME: it is my choice.
MY FRIEND: that stirs strange emotions that i dont think i need to analyze
ME: did not mean to compare. just to emphasize i dont think i can still say "no" to Him.
MY FRIEND: yes
MY FRIEND: whatever amount of "alpha male" in me responds to it and i choose to not deal with that response
ME: understood...
MY FRIEND: no male with any alpha in him, likes for another male to be "more alpha" LOL
ME: 'deep thoughts' on a monday at work? not allowed...
